Bulsha:- Kittens, our happiness, our fulfillment, and our lives, can not be defined by someone else. For two reasons: That someone else could leave us at anytime. T
hey could cheat, they could fall out of love, they could even die.No matter how in love you are, you need to be prepared to be left at anytime. Because you might find yourself without bae, and you better like the girl your left with. You will never find real love until you love yourself.
I know it’s so cliche, I threw-up in my mouth as I typed out the sentence, but FUCK, it’s true. Olivia didn’t really love that dude. She used him. She used him like a druggie uses the pretty blue pills. She used him like I used to use cocktails. To avoid facing herself. To avoid getting to know herself.
To run away from herself. It can be scary to face yourself, but until you do, you’ll never have real love. Until you’ve looked in the mirror and been okay with your gorgeous flawed AF reflection, independently, without someone else calling you “pretty,” you’ll never find real love. Because real love is derived out of wanting someone, not needing to use them as a filler.
And once you have that deep, kick-ass relationship with yourself, you’ll draw in other people who have deep, kick-ass relationships with themselves. You know you’ll always be OK, because no matter what unpredictable shit life throws at you, your best friend will be there for you, through it all.
And no one is cooler than your best friend, and baby, your best friend is you. “No one is cooler than your best friend, and baby, your best friend is you.” As for me, I’m almost there.
I have days when I love myself, days when I hate myself. But what I’ve learned from knowing Olivia is that no matter what, I’ll never neglect myself. If I were to die alone tomorrow, at least I’ll take comfort in the fact that while I wasn’t perfect to myself, I fucking knew myself.
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Xafiiska Shabakada Bulsha
UK- Leicester united kingdom
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